Where did my interdenominational love go?
I turned around today and realised that somehow I became an Anglican nerd – in the bad way. I have been leaning dangerously close to mindset that the only real christians are Sydney Anglicans or similar. Ow, that’s an embarassing thing to say.
Since my mum got back, I have been trying extra hard to be nice to her. I’m ashamed to say that part of it is very self-serving, but it is also a lot to do with seeing how stressed she gets over her kids (both at home and in the classroom), and so I have attempted to alleviate some of this stress by being as useful and kind as possible. I found out recently, however, that my share of her stress largely comes from the fact that I am a Christian. How to resolve this? I’m sorry to say, but a lot of the time the easiest way out for me during religious conversation is to find common ground in bagging out christians in politics, or loud american christians, or other stereotypes like that.
How did I end up here? I really don’t like this place where I am. I miss being at uni where there were lots of people challenge my viewpoints and encourage me to love all my brothers and sisters. Somehow being out of that extended community has made me forget that my brothers and sisters are real people and I can’t compromise my relationship with them because I want to keep peace with my mother the easy way!
So I don’t know if I have posted here before about this, but there has always been some sort of tension between serving my friends and serving my family. I was about to say something like “I am going to put more effort into being genuine and loving with my friends and brothers and sisters”, but I know that within days that will flip around and my family will require all energy again. I don’t really know where to start in a situation like this.